Return from TUP

This has been the strangest experience ever, going from living in a community of 15 people in the innercity of Tampa to my "normal" life. I love my family, don't get me wrong, but living at home reminds me of why I am moving out in August. There is no community at home. The closest we get to community is sitting around the television commenting on whatever is showing at that moment. During TUP we had deep, more meaningful conversations! You could see God everywhere, and I am having a hard time seeing God where I am now. I know He is there, He is everywhere, but it is still hard to see. I miss the kids at Central Park soooo much! As much as I miss the family we created in our house. When we were all leaving last thursday I felt incomplete. I felt like I should be with people, but I knew that Toya, Yih, and Linz all had to fly out to their homes. Can't we just fly everyone back here to live in the TH with us again? We had goo community, good relationships there. Where did that go? I need to spend some time with God, alone. I know that is an area of my life that is lacking but I am lazy. It is not a good excuse but that is the truth, unfortunately. It has always been that way in my life too. God and I need a stronger, deeper relationship, and it is my fault we don't have that already. He and I have to talk. Unfortunately I am at work, so that conversing can only be so personal. I will try to go to the park tonight to get away and be with God.
I did learn a lot at TUP but I will save that for a later post, after I spend time with the God who taught me everything I know.